and i swear,

in that moment we were infinite.

wrap up: my girl scout gold award project.

for the last three months, i've been working on my girl scout gold award. the gold award is the highest honor in girl scouting and i was so excited i was able to work on this project.

for my project, i made a set of birthing kits. i made fifty kits that held essential materials to help a pregnant woman give birth in more sanitary conditions. i found an organization that takes yearly trips to zimbabwe, where they deliver the birthing kits and schooling kits. the organization's name is journeypartners and they are seriously the best. i absolutely loved working with them and i can honestly say they made my gold award project so much easier.

one part that the girl scout council focuses on is making your gold award project sustainable. for this part of my project, i spoke with another girl scout troop in my area and they agreed to take on my project.

here's where you all come in though! i was wondering if any of you might be interested in making a set of birthing kits and sending them to journeypartners yourself. it is very easy to make these kits, the hard part is just collecting all of the materials. (you can see a list of what goes into a birthing kit here.)

in no way am i asking for a commitment or a contract signed in blood, but i am just throwing this project out there for anyone looking for a way to give back!

if you do end up making a set and sending them to journeyparnters, let me know! i'd love to hear about how it went for you!

you are my sweetest downfall.

things are quite lovely right now.

i'm talking to someone new.

someone who has found his way into my heart.

someone who is unlike anyone i have ever met before.

someone who is genuine.

someone who i feel like i can trust, with everything. even my heart.

people are pushing me to share details, to share names, to share texts.

i'm not ready yet. all i say is "i'm talking to someone new".

besides, people talk. and that is all they need to know right now.

i've gotten two weeks so far. two weeks of talking to this silly boy.

and i have to say, those two weeks have probably been the best.

little thoughts.

all my thoughts

and

problems
and
worries
and
troubles
seem so insignificant right now.


i couldn't ever imagine losing one of my future children.
i can't understand it, i can't wrap my mind around it at all.


today inspired me to go out and truly life my life, live it the way i should be.
whenever i think about him, i get tears in my eyes.
before he was born, i never knew someone so tiny could have such an impact on my life.
and oh boy, he did.


rest in peace, dear jonah. you will be missed by so many, including myself.

things are changing.

i am changing.

and i love it so much.