July 14, 2010

later on.


^ from the fourth of july, again.


whenever i remember something he said or did, i get this tight feeling in my chest. it's a feeling of happiness and sadness, all rolled together into one strong emotion. it feels strange. it wants to escape my mind, my heart, and be known. but as soon as i stop thinking, it stops, and sighs. and then once i start thinking again, it starts up once more. it belongs, it's demanding, wanting to be fed with memories and laughs and the good times, not the bad ones. can you really blame it?

3 comments:

Senpai said...

whenever I remember stuff I said it makes me want to smack my head against a wall...
clearly I only remember the stupid things I say...

The Lly Dilettante said...

Well written. Sometimes I feel the same way.

kara lynn said...

i know what you mean. gosh i wish my heart had a back door it could step out and take a break hurting me. don't you think? and put it back when its calmed down and i'm focused on other things