^ from the fourth of july, again.
whenever i remember something he said or did, i get this tight feeling in my chest. it's a feeling of happiness and sadness, all rolled together into one strong emotion. it feels strange. it wants to escape my mind, my heart, and be known. but as soon as i stop thinking, it stops, and sighs. and then once i start thinking again, it starts up once more. it belongs, it's demanding, wanting to be fed with memories and laughs and the good times, not the bad ones. can you really blame it?